Welcome to my Youtube Channel!

I have just begun work on building my personal channel to practice my skills on camera, editing and post processing, and the results don't look bad so far.



I really need to work on exactly what I capture on visual, because right now, I am obsessed with studio, but natural with candid shots.



Will be making better planned videos in the future, and do more regular uploading. Would be really happy if people subscribe!

Captain America, youth and the inevitable passage of time

I went to watch Captain America: Civil War, technically yesterday, May 07, 2016.

It is a very well made film with a complex and difficult plot line, in which the Avengers, now no longer working under S.H.I.E.L.D, is being held accountable for the catastrophes in the last 4 years - the Alien Invasion of New York, The unveiling of Hydra at Washington D.C., the Sokovia Disaster, and the Bombing at Lagos, Nigeria.
Looking at these events, a large majority of the world's governments consider the Avengers a threat, and want to bring them under UN command. This proposal gets them divided, as Tony Stark, being the businessman, understands how statute and government procedure works, while Capt. America believes in the original reason for the founding of this team, which is to provide quick reaction in extremely dangerous conditions to protect the world from falling into chaos.

One of the things that struck me was the part where Capt. Steve Rogers, a.k.a. Captain America goes to attend the funeral of his late girlfriend Margaret 'Peggy' Carter, and then his little tryst with her niece.

It reminded me how easy it is to forget about the passage of time in youth. We often feel a certain sense of endlessness, very much like immortality in our youth. Indeed, it is easy to miss how it flies away, and those that are left behind in their younger state while the world around them changes at breakneck speeds, they still become obsolete and out of context. There isn't much choice: get old but stay relevant, or get left behind, and become a living ghost.

As the movie ended and I jogged down the exit stairs, the question was piercing me: am I getting left behind? Am I current enough to be relevant?

I watch the news over the internet, know in depth about current affairs most of the time, have made regular progress in my employee as well as entrepreneurial career, and yet, I am stuck for a breakthrough to the point I expected to have achieved already.
Even though the realization of the need for that one big leap has been there for a while, this feeling of obsolescence gave me a jolt to sort my ongoing projects and plan their schedule more tightly on the chronology.

So here it is, the rough plan for deadlines for current ongoing projects:

1. Website for RGBmill June 15th, 2016

2. Launch for Summer collection 2016 for Cchavi: End of June/First week of July 2016.

3. Cchavi.com online store: July 1, 2016

4. Fashion Conclave: August 10, 2016

5. Ostentation.org: September 1, 2016

6. Final draft for script for Deja Vu: October 1, 2016

7. Countrywide tour for location testing for Deja Vu: October 15 to 22, 2016

8. Shooting for Deja Vu: 17 to 26 March, 2017

Sticking to this schedule, and hopefully, success in the ventures will establish me as a somewhat successful entrepreneur and a minor filmmaker by the end of 2017, which is acceptable expectation from the future, as the most vile of people are no longer being a roadblock between me and the results to my efforts, and I am also getting the company of helpful people.

If my job gets stable, I will be able to take all the above missions, otherwise, another change of jobs,
which is not desirable anymore as of now, as banking will suffer if that happens, which is a very hard thing to go through, what with ECS for loans in the first week of every month.

I hope I stay relevant and age gracefully, the rest is up to destiny.

The fantasies of others, and the woman of my dreams

This is my second post in a row on the subject of relationships/the opposite sex/marriage etc.

Now that a relationship/marriage is finally on the table, the next question that comes around as valid is what kind of woman do I like?

Now if we go by every man's fantasy, most men want a woman with a body that has the features they like the way they like them, a pleasing complexion, a happy, fun nature, shouldn't be intimidating in any way, should be able to do the chores of the house, and if one can get some good head, its a superb bonus.

I, however, am not every man. I am Shivendu Kumar Narayan. To me, this is a whole different level of thought process. Hmmmm.....................

There was a point of time when I did fall in love, with a woman that was mind blowing, to the boy I was then. That was the last time I felt good about being happy. It ended with a breach of my trust in a very cowardly manner, and since then, I never had the courage to trust another woman to that point, and most probably never will.

And yet, I am open to looking for a woman that kindles the light in me again, because I wish with all my heart to be able to shed weakness, and come back to strength. Strength is shown in both statute and generosity.

Being pretty is not enough, being fun is not enough. If a woman thinks she can captivate me with a smile, go home, do your prep, try again sometime. 

When looking for a woman I function as a true Sagittarian Alpha. I look for the one woman that is capable of intimidating others with her wit, while being in beautiful sync with me to the point that she can complete my sentences. She is generally respected, people Like her, but she ranks in the middle section of the popularity charts.

I like a woman I can sit down and have a discussions with on more than what will be for dinner tonight, knows the cultural, political, business and scientific references in the discussion, and can actually give fruitful results from such discussions. On the other hand, I am not bored by a woman that listens but doesn't have much to contribute to the chat.If a girl is receptive and eager to learn through me, I am happy to instruct, given she actually learns. Teaching everything to your girl has its own fun.

The typical cliche' of a pretty girl means her looks are of primary importance to her, and everything else is secondary, loves the most disgusting and cheap daily soaps with watered down content, and is never aware either of international cultural references or of current affairs. This is the woman that is interested in nothing but her own fulfillment, nothing more. A woman not capable of holding her own in the company of grown men.

The moment the narcissistic, material, selfish, predatory, greedy woman knows you are into her all the way, which is very much possible for most men, corrupt and vulnerable as they come, the constant nagging for new things begins. Then come the stupidest, most irrational and laughable arguments on the availability of time for a man.

Stage 1: Honey, we need to go shopping for this/that.

Stage 2: (Went shopping, didn't buy what was planned)Why don't you buy that, I've been telling you about it since eons, but you never listen(when the man has been taking her to buy whatever she asked for all along).

Stage 3:(The man is overburdened by work, needs to concentrate so he can earn a promotion, and so on and so forth)I don't know what happened between us, you never have time for me anymore...

These women are capable of destroying a man's judgement as well as self esteem. If you look like a million bucks and expect me to be impressed by it, you better be a professional at it like a model or a makeup artist or something. Otherwise, work harder at doing something more fruitful.

So, with all that being said, there are 2 concepts here: the woman I want to live with, and the fantasy girl, and for me the two stand poles apart. And yet, just to clarify, I am in no way a sympathizer to feminism. I believe that men and women are equal and different.
The idea that the wonders women create at home are of lesser importance than what men do at their workplaces is a dogma that has been marketed by the evil nexus of media and corporations in the fashion and beauty industry, ironically.

Makeup and fashionable clothing and accessories have been a staple requirement for women through the millenia when they need to go out, and home bound women are less likely to go for fancier products. The more they get out, the more they need to spend on themselves.Under the guise of control of one's own destiny, they are being sold more product, and they can't control it, as they can not shake off the notion of 'appearances are everything'.

  

But the world has changed drastically over the last decade or so. Professional women with sharp skills and discipline can build a career from the comfort of their home, although in India, they are not encouraged very well for anything, 'times are a'changin'..

I hope someday, I will find the woman that completes the sentences I start, but find hard to finish, and soon, as time spreads its wings widest in youth.